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Post by Nina on May 27, 2006 11:06:14 GMT -5
Nina turned to him. "Drugs kill you if you have to many. Even those meant to be good for you." she said softly. "I don't really believe that love is something meant for me. I..." She thought for a moment. "I don't have to explain myself to you." She said angerly, and shaking her head. WHat am I doing....he doesn't need my life's story! She thought, even if it was nice to spill her guts to someone, he didn't need to know, and he wasn't asking. She wouldn't tell...couldn't face it herself.
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Post by Scith on May 27, 2006 14:54:21 GMT -5
"Hm, thats the point though. Drugs are given to you and your told to take it in proper moderation. If you can understand the words given to you about them, and dont heed them, then you dont really deserve to have them now do you? As obviously you dont have enough respect for something like that to use it."
He shrugged shoulders once more, then heard about her issue regarding love.. that got a snicker from him as those eyes focused once more on her and he returned his smile to his face.
"Do you honestly believe that shit? Love is for EVERYONE. And I do mean EVERYONE. There is always another out there whom will love you. "
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Post by Nina on May 27, 2006 19:52:50 GMT -5
Nina shrugged, and looked up at the sky. "Well then with my luck, I'll never meet him." She said with a little chuckle. "I guess its better that way." She then looked him in the eyes.
"Have you found that special someone?" She asked, really ok with any answer, so long as she got the conversation off of herself.
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Post by Scith on May 28, 2006 19:15:27 GMT -5
"I have found a few people I believed to be the "special" someones, but they all choose to leave in the end because of what I do. I do not give up hope simply because of that however, I know out there somewhere someone is waiting on me."
He just shrugged his shoulders, looking over at her once more with the same intentions that he had before, but he wasnt exactly worried if she saw the true him, nor did he care if she disliked it either.
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Post by Nina on May 28, 2006 19:27:49 GMT -5
"No one loves me. Not even my foster parents." She laughed a little. "Its pathetic what people do out of pity and fear." Sighing, she shook her head. "Everyone who loved me is dead now." She said coldly, almost to coldly to be human. Her eyes steady on the ground.
((I thought u left?!?!?))
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Post by Scith on May 28, 2006 19:33:45 GMT -5
"Hmm. How do you know others cant grow to love you? That others cant someday show their compassion for you? It is always possible. My parents are long gone, I have no siblings, what do you expect me to say? The same as you?.. "
He laughed once more and just shook his head, showing her he believed in a completely different thing from her own. That smile came more so, and his body relaxed once again.
( Check out the "Later" thread in coming and going XD )
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Post by Nina on May 28, 2006 19:41:55 GMT -5
Tears filled her green eyes she didn't know why. "What if I told I don't want love. I want it less then pity, and sympathy, less then hate, less then death." Tears fell down her cheeks. "Because I don't want to hurt." She said her voice shaking she saw his smile. "You can't go through life with a smile painted on your face, its not healthy." She said whipping the unwanted tears away.
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Post by Scith on May 28, 2006 19:44:49 GMT -5
"Not healthy? It is far healthier then wearing tears, and a constant grimace. If one looks at every outcome with some sort of good spin, then there is far far less chance of disappointment, simple as that.. more so.. to not want love? If that is your choice, then so be it.. but know, that love.. even if it can hurt you.. is one of the absolute best feelings in the world one can have.."
He didnt bring his smile away, instead he just watched her with those blue eyes focused cleanly and clearly. He wasnt going to show her any pity, nor was he going to show sadness, it would do nothing but prove her correct in her point, and he didnt want her to give up on the happiness of herself in the future.. nor others.
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Post by Nina on May 28, 2006 19:52:53 GMT -5
"Its not me I'm worried about." She said softly, biting her lip. "My parents died in a fire, while I was playing in the backyard. It was instant, they probably didn't even feel a thing, my friend was right beside me," She shuddered. "I woke up in the hospital, I was unconcous for a month, and had to stay in the hospital another three. There was a crater where my house used to be." She said now shaking. "You know what happened? I skinned my knee. I skinned my knee and killed every one." She said angerly. "You think I want to love after THAT?" She said almost yelling she let out a small growl that came out as more of a wimper, and a small fire started at her feet.
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Post by Scith on May 28, 2006 20:16:05 GMT -5
Thats when he shook his head and moved forwards towards her, letting hand come up to her cheek and giving a light stroke, he had done so wearign the same smile he had before, if not one that was more kind and relaxed.
"You were a child then.. emotions often effect magic, I have seen it happen a few times already and I have only been in this place for a few weeks. You cant give up on love simply because of issues like that.. it may be hard.. it may be almost impossible to love.. but it isnt TRULY impossible. You just need to find someone who isnt afraid of what you do.. and someone whom can stand it even if you get more and more angry. "
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Post by Nina on May 28, 2006 20:20:35 GMT -5
Nina slapped his hand away, her cheeks becoming red, with anger and embarassment, she dropped down to her knees. "Hut its so much...so much easier.......just to hate......" Shaking her head in her hands she just cried, let it out, she hadn't cried since she had her accedent. All the tears just poured, and she couldn't stop them.
((man.....this song and post want to make me cry for some reason.....))
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Post by Scith on May 28, 2006 20:27:48 GMT -5
"If love was easy.. it wouldnt be worth it. "
He heard her words, saw the tears as she fell down to her knees yet at the sametime he didnt say much after it, instead just let his hand come down as he came down to a crouch, holding her shoulder lightly and just offering his smile to her as some sense of comfort, he was trying to get through to her that love could still be for her if she looked for it.
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Post by Nina on May 28, 2006 20:33:56 GMT -5
Nina just kept crying, until she couldn't any more, and she began to hicup. "Everything in life comes with-hicup-a price tag...-hicup-...doesn't it?" She sniffled, and shook her head, her voice was shakey and sad, and she was suddenly tired. Whiping her eyes, she looked up at him. "You must think I'm some sort freak..." She said looking straight at him, he was still smiling. He'll probably die with that smile on his face... She thought.
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Post by Scith on May 28, 2006 20:37:00 GMT -5
"Nah.. people sometimes break down.. its understandable."
He just nodded and shifted so he could sit down infront of her, his hands settling there on his knees as well. She had cried so easily.. but he had heard some of what she had gone through, and he couldnt blame her for any of it.
" Your right though, everything has a price tag, even breathing in air causes your lungs to age more quickly and muscles to weaken over long periods of time. "
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Post by Nina on May 28, 2006 20:41:49 GMT -5
((bed time...my back and shoulder hurt....>.<))
Nina sniffled and hicupped a few more times before they stopped. "Living just costs....because in the end you pay all your bills." She said taking a deep breath, and looked at him still. "I've never poured my guts out like that...." She said softly, and looked down at the grass. "Not even to my cat." She said thinking how wierd that must sound. "I'm sorry." Her voice echoed with sincerity, and eyes still on the ground.
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