A Shattered Soul (Jyo and by request)

[Ziare]

Armenius landed in the large courtyard of the academy growling with rage. He wouldn't let anyone near the girl that was engulfed in flames if only to keep her safe from anything. Her tears fell from her open and sightless eyes and those empty orbs hurt Armenius the most. She was like a daughter to him having been with her since she was born and having felt like he had guided and helped her grow into the wonderful woman she had been. But now seeing her hurting like this made him want to kill every last man in the world so that he would never see this look on her face.

The medical team on alert from Kaladra who had called out to them something she had never done. But this incident had called for drastic measure. They rushed out with the gurney and Armenius sadly let the fire drop as carefully he lay his bond on the white sheets. Her pale skin seemed even paler now against the white sheets and her beautiful hair was tangled from the actions of earlier. Kaladra had told the med team what had happened and they already knew that she was going to be a difficult case to handle.

Armenius unsummoned himself but not before a tear drop came down from his eye crashing into the grass below. A little pond now made. The med team rushed the girl into the recovery wing her own private room she was given and there was always someone there in the room always a woman incase she woke.

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It had now been days since she had been brought to the room. Her arm was hooked up to ivs that kept her alive feeding her and giving her fluids so that she wouldn't slip away. Though no signs of her mind or her soul seemed left at all. She didn't respond to her name or to physical stimulai. She lay staring upward her tears had stopped falling but every now and then a tear would fall. They were careful not to mention Jyo's name while in her room because the tears would start again.

No one had yet been able to reach the young summoner. Armenius tried and even Kal had but it seemed that neither could seem to get back into the young girls mind that was hidden in the back. Kaladra perched on the head of the young girls bed. Even her healing tears had not brought back Ziare. It was heartbreaking to see.

When rumors came of Jyo actually living the phoenix knew that something had to be done. Perhaps if it was true he could bring her back to this world instead of lost between this and the next. To have Ziare die would be a great deficit she had so much yet to live for. Kal took flight and dropped a note and a red feather under Jyo's door.

-Ziare.. lost... need.. miracle.-

[Alastin]

Pain.

Alastin looked up he had just seen that his bags were dropped off to his room and he held the key to his room in his hand. Yet there was something just so horribly wrong at the moment that it nearly gave him a headache. He could sense horrible pain. His room was a floor above the medical word and a couple halls away. Yet the pain and emotional tear that he could sense made him worry. He shivered slightly the chill was enough to make one worry if they were emotion sensitive like him. A snap and his wings came out he was finally able to openly use them. The shirt had been tailored by himself so his wings had slits to go through already. Carefully he began to follow the source of the pain that seemed to be filling this place. It wasn't because he wanted to figure out what was causing it. Well he did but, he also wanted to help whoever was in this pain.

For the next several minutes he looked getting a hotter and colder sort of feeling out before he finally reached the medical ward. The ward where someone's pain was so personified it made the air itself seem sad and desolate. He touched the door the entrance to the ward and sensed anger. Rage. As if daring him to go through that door only to be horribly injured. Misae's own presence flared slightly giving a protective growl towards whatever was the source of that anger. The anger seemed to be negotiating with Misae who wouldn't let Alastin in on the conversation and finally the anger from the other source showed an almost protective sort of stature. Alastin gave a small sigh for a moment as he opened the door to the medical ward and found that he hadn't been smited by whatever was the source of it. Whether or not this was Misae's work he didn't know.

He saw a girl.

A girl who's eyes looked like the bottomless pits that you could only read about and pity. Pity for what turmoil they went through they never hearing the sounds of life anymore. A bird a magnificent bird perched on the bed-frame and Alastin looked up at it. Would it strike him? He wasn't aware of the intelligence of the bird or if it could sense his intentions. Lightly he plucked a feather from his wing that was about to shed anyways. The soft white feather he left soft white flames cover and he blew it gently. The soft warmth fluttering the flames not engulfing the feather as it fluttered over to the girl's open hand and gently landed in the palm spreading warmth to it.

What could have happened to her?

Carefully Alastin approached her side his wings folded behind his back at the moment so they wouldn't be as easily noticed at first.

[Ziare]

Armenius reared up at the first sign of someone wanting to come in. It wasn't Jyo and that was the only man MAAAAN he planned to let into see his bond. There was no way between him and Kaladra that anything would happen to his precious bond until they could reach her.

But something unexpected had happened another dragon conscience reared back. Armenius had been shocked and began conferring with this other dragon. What was this presence that wanted in? A holy summoner. Could he save the precious girl lying in the bed her heart and soul gone and dying every day because no one could reach her.

Relenting the boy was allowed to enter. Armenius went dormant but on guard and he and Kaladra would watch. The pheonix's strange fire blue eyes looked at the boy and studied him. A white feather was pulled from his white angel wings and it flew with a white fire towards the hand of Ziare.

Warmth...

Why do I suddenly feel warm?

The young girl crestfallen and broken in the back of Ziare's mind felt the warmth. She had been cold for days. Lost in the antartic. Everything was white. She couldn't see she could feel she would die soon. Her heart would give out the way her body had to the cold ice. She would never see the penguins and never see the sunrise over the ice. She lived in the dark and cold Antartic. Where the ice was encroaching on her very soul.

[Alastin]

Alastin winced at the backlash from Armenius and held his head for a few moments. This dragon yes dragon his bond telling him of what she knew somewhat but, once again being vague. Carefully he reached out and almost sensed the hostility eminating from the bird. His golden eyes looked up and met the Phoenix's blue-fire eyed gazed. He could sense the anger in the bird as well protective anger like Armenius. Yes both were very protective of their bondmate so something bad must of happened to her. Alastin gently touched Ziare's forehead whispering softly in latin to achieve a meditative state and let his senses get closer and focus on her. And he almost lost it right then. The outrage of pain that nearly flooded on him from this girl as her mind was filled with a black ice that made him shiver. He felt cold for a moment. For several moments he felt so cold.

What did she go through? What hell did she endure. No...hell is much nicer then this. This blackness. Taint of darkness that I can feel stirring.

Softly he whispered something in Norweigen a healing voice spell activating the energy changed from physical healing to a mental one to help soothe the young girl for a moment. There was so much pain and despair wrapped around her. He held his head for a moment first the anger and now the despair this was a very complicated affair.

Misae?

~It is a complicated affair youngling. From what I can see she goes through much pain not even the icy reaches of the artic match the one in her soul.~

And the two?

~As I said the presence you sensed first is Armenius. Much like me he is a bond dragon though of a different element.~

I see.

Gently he touched her forehead again his fingers covered in beautiful white flames as he stroked her forehead and then her cheeks letting the warmth of the flames set in. Not the obvious heat from flames but, the comforting warmth that these had as they were channeled by a positive memory.

[Ziare]

Armenius and Kaladra were keeping close watch over their summoner. There was no way anyone would harm the girl again if they had anything to say about it. This boy was lucky that he was a healer else they would have sent a flame ball at him the moment he entered the door.

But this one was man that might actually be able to get through to her if Jyo didn't come. They were even unsure if Jyo could make it right now seeing as he was not here yet and if he could reach her .. was a very big question. She thought him dead and it would be hard with her in this state to make her feel anything else.

The boy recoiled from the state of feelings running through the young summoners body. Armenius winced at the boy because he was already trying to deal with the pain from the inside but even he couldn't get through to the young girl. Placed in a meditative state Ziare would not recoil or backlash to the boy while he tried to heal her but that also left all her feelings open to those that tried to get into her mind.

The warmth came again and this time if felt like it was on her body yet she was not ready to go back there. It was cold and empty the ugly thing that had gotten her hear in this land of darkness and ice. The stupid sack of skin that would forever be marred by the horrid acts portrayed on it that fateful day.

She wasn't ready to deal with that body. The one that had betrayed her. The one that had been drugged and hadn't moved the one that felt what he did. Her mind was lost in anguish over Jyos death her mind suffering from the loss of her body. There was no way she was going back.

[Alastin]

He winced again and felt sympathy? Was this Armenius giving him sympathy from going through a similar aspect but, only on the inside and repetitively? He shivered for a moment thinking a deep and dark her thoughts must be as he considered what he could do. How much would he be willing to risk for someone that he didn't know? He chewed his thumb for a moment as he gazed at her again and lightly let his fingers brush her hair carefully tending it and giving her the comfort. He got a brush from the table and lightly sat her up and brushed her hair out lightly to help just make it neater and more comfortable before he layed her down again. He sighed as he saw the almost anguishing empty-eyed gaze once again on the cieling never showing any reacion to him. What had happened to her? He wanted to know yet at the same time he was afraid to know.

Misae...

~This is your choice summoner. Or should I say healer.~

It's frightening. The darkness.

~Darkness is only the absence of light. Try being the light for her.~

I'll try.

Lightly Alastin considered the choices none of them looking good at the moment with her soul in such darkness and despair. He considered his routes for a moment but, the key was at least trying to bring her back from the darkness that had enveloped her for the moment. He considered several routes as he lightly let his hand envelop in the white flames and let her lay back. He placed his hand on her forehead and gently began to let the flames cover her. Not harming anything just letting the warmth and positive energy surround her as he channeled the thought.

"Life still has a need of you lady summoner..." Alastin whispered softly as one of his wings shifted forward and the tip gently stroked her cheek.

[jyo]

Jyo felt it. A pressure on his mind. Zaire needed him. More than ever now. He closed his eyes and concentrated on her presence. Soon he appeared over her with wings spread out and an unearthly glow glimmering off of him. He saw another with her.
"Please save your efforts healer. It is not her body that it wounded. At least thats not what is te most critical part now." He said with an odd echo in his voice as he looked to Zaire.
"Zaire. I'm here." He said walking to her.

[Ziare]

Ziare felt warmth enveloping her body. There was nothing though that showed the summoner was even slightly conscious. She was lost in a sea of black. Tossing and turning on an ocean of sharp spikes and killer waves. There was no sun or moon. There was just darkness in every direction. It was her soul that was dying. And with each heart beat she fell closer to the end that would finally bring her to the peace she sought.

A voice. It was a strange voice one she had never heard before as she lay dying in the bed at the academy. It was the source of the warmth. The source of the glow. It was the one trying to keep her here the one that wouldn't let her go.

But a voice shot through the darkness.

"Ziare I'm here." it said in an echo of Jyo's voice.

Tears rolled down her face but her eyes still showed nothing it was her heart and her soul crying for the loss of the man she had loved more than her own life. He was not there. A figment of her imagination was the only thing she could call it. The tears rolled but she didn't move. He was gone and her mind was playing tricks on her. Telling her she had something to live for when she had nothing.

Life was not worth living. In a body that no longer would be appealing to anyone. A mind that was damaged. A heart that was broken. A soul that slowly disappated as she lay in the bed feeling warmth but not moving at all.

[jyo]

Jyo stepped clser looking down at his love. He had not heard any word of her until the pressure on his mind. He knew she had been here since before his return to this world. At least now he knew. But he had been in so much pain from everything catching up to him he couldn't focus until only a few minutes ago. He had no idea of what happend to her.

Jyo put his hand on her forehead.
Such a risk. But for you Zaire I will chance it. He thought and focused his energies into his healing abilities. Unlike othe healers though he had other means of healing her.
Your pain is no longer yours but mine He thought and gasped as he felt everything that had happened to her flood into him. he found it hard to keep a grip on things. Her rape and her feelings at the news of his death flooded into him. Plus the other feelings of misery and pain. He fell to his knees hoping this worked.
"Zaire please come back. I need you." He said weakly struggeling to his feet and gasping.

[Alastin]

"How I use my energy is how I wish, fighter," Alastin whispered softly as he leaned forward again and continued to let his touch gently reach her and touch her. He saw her tears and nearly cursed softly seeing the pain just this man's voice was causing her. What kind of impact did his voice have on her. She felt like she was slipping into the darkness even more deeply. The ice becoming more pronounced in the depth of her soul. Did this fighter have a past connection with her that cut her so deeply that it was only aiding the blackness that was ruling her right now? Alastin did not have any weapons on him right now his weapon back in his room. His wings streched out lightly as Alastin shook his head. She was so far gone that it was going to take days maybe even weeks for Alastin to bring her back. He had already decided.

She's not going to die here...

~Just as I expected from the one who I chose as bond-mate. You have a good heart now put it to use to help her rather then telling me.~

He shook his head again as he lightly touched her cheek gagging at the amount of turmoil that was going through her. He almost got sick just from reaching out and touching her mind. Yet he wasn't going to give up he had to try and help her try and bring her back. Nobody deserved the death that she was going through right now nobody at all. He shook his head as he sensed something else. The taint of a recent death was near her. Had she been forced to kill someone? No...Misae nudged him elsewhere saying that something else took care of that. He found something more black and revolting he getting a hazzy idea and it nearly made him throw up his wings quivering as he sank to his knees from the backlash. She wasn't lashing at him mentally it was the pure darkness.

This is even worse then hell...

He saw the fighter do something and his eyes snapped open wide.

"DON'T!" He cried out loudly but, it was too late. The fool was only going to duplicate the pain only a psychic could erase memories. He shook his head watching him sink to his knees. It would appear Alastin would have another to help soon. Even worse was that he could be replaying her memories if it was done wrong. Alastin shivered as he focused the flames even more draining off more of his energy as the flames became more intense the cover slipping away by the unseen heat the memory was one of Alastin's happiest ones. When he discovered Misae for the first time.

[Ziare]

It was cold so very cold in this place. But a light there was something there that was calling to her not a voice but a light. Pale it was like a small star a pinpoint in the blackness that was there with her. The young girl slowly stood. This was not the woman that lay on the bed but a younger much more adventurous Ziare from her youth her blonde hair hung down around her.

But as the girl took her first step to investigate the star her memories were ripped out from her head visciously. Replaying them in her mind the girl sank to her knees screaming in agony as she relived the last few days. The viscious rape, the killing of the man that had raped her, the murder, the death of Jyo. Everything ripped right back from her darkest places and shown once again like an Imax view.

The girl cringed back down and cried hard sobs as the voice of Jyo came to her once again.

"Ziare please come back. I need you."

But what was there to come back to. An empty shell an empty life. Her right hand clenched tightly her knuckles white as the tears rolled down her face like rivers. No more were they single tears but one continuous flow.

The small girl in her mind crawled. Down into the deeper darkness away from the pain and the heartache that filled the mind she was in. She crawled away from the light.

[jyo]

Not even this is working. But how? Could it be this tramtic to her. Thought Jyo as he felt he pain increase. He stopped his efforts and ignored the man by him. After what did he know of how Jyo felt about Zaire. This was a girl he had came back from death itself and had consinged his soul to nothingess for.

Jyo ran his fingers through her hair and held her to him.
"Zaire please. Come back. I love you. I know what happend. Please don't give up. You're stronger than this. Please come back to me." he said begging. Tears flowed from him.
I didn't come back to lose her like this. He thought as he kept holding her to him.
"Please you mean more than anything to me. Even my own sould. Please please wake up." He said now literally sobbing.

[Alastin]

Alastin let out a scream of mental pain in his mind the Misae cringed from as he sank to his knees and retched again. The memories. The horror. It was no wonder that this girl never wanted to see the light anymore. And this fighter was only making it worse on her. He finally got sick on the floor retching up the light lunch that he ate the vile taste of pile in his mouth. His wings were shuddering. Shuddering. What the hell was this idiot doing?! Did he want her to die? Did he just enjoy her suffering through pain so intense that not even the light of day could melt it? Alastin shivered at the thought. Were people so out right cruel and evil to the ones that they claimed they had feelings for? Was this what humanity's gifts were being used on? This black and foul circle of pain that God himself would wish to wash away as he did in Moses' time?

Wha...what's going on?

Misae cried in rage at what this man did that hurt her bondmate and thrashed visciously her rage becoming known in the room. How she wanted to come out and rend her claws at what the man did to her bondmate. How dare this man who claims he is acting on good hurt her bondmate in such a vicious backlash ignoring what her summoner knew. Who was this man? Misae hissed and snapped in the corner of Alastin's mind that she occupied her raw will giving Alastin the strength the stand after he wiped his mouth of the foul bile. He shuddered lightly as he gripped the edge of the bed. Who was this idiot?

~SUMMON ME ASLASTIN! HIS ACTIONS ARE INEXCUSABLE!~

Misae calm down!

~How dare this.. this.. THING do what he just did?!~

I SAID CALM DOWN DAMN IT!

The dragon hissed again in the corner of his mind aching to flex her claws on the plane but, she backed down for that brief second. Alastin gazed at Ziare and closed his eyes fighting away the memories he just endured Misae cutting them off for now as an intense holy flame encompassed his hand.

MAY NIGHTMARES DAMN HIM!

Misae snapped and Alastin winced as he held his head as he focused once more on his memory. The memory of learning how to fly. The pure unadultured joy of flying through the air. This was the memory he used and he used a whopping amount of energy to fuel the flames the light unable to be directly looked at as he touched Ziare's forhead with one flaming hand the other he layed on her heart.

[Varys]

Varys had been wandering the halls. His mind could feel it. The vile stench of unadulterated fear. Of anguish and pain of being unable to escape. His mind was drawn to it, His nightmares screamed unholy screams in his mind to find it. His body moved hurriedly, crazed and confused. The Nightmares in his head near controlling his body, his skin was burning with the need to transform. His bones were almost straining to fall apart and reconstruct. Everything in his body was going crazy and then...

MAY NIGHTMARES DAMN HIM!

A throb went through the body. The change went on faster than Varys had ever experienced. It seemed more his body exploded than reconfigured this time. Growing constantly, skin changing to a pure ebony, the skulls of the first victims being drawn from another plane of existance. Todesknochen's 8 and a half foot body had taken over and moved towards the wall. The damnation that called emenated from just behind the wall. The target was just behind the wall. There was so many different screams for the destruction that Todesknochen couldn't handle it.

The huged clawed hands shot through the walls of the buildings, sharpened boney points tearing through with a small deal of effort. The target was known, the clawed fingers were meant to wrap around the one that had been damned and hated by so many. The bone death would find itself against something that it was almost summoned to do.

The Nightmare hunted Jyo.

[Ziare]

Jyo's voice resounded in her head again and the girl crumbled in tears shaking as so did Ziare's body. Trembling at the force of the internal sobs shaking her entire body as the sheets below her head were now soaked with her tears.

I love you...

Her eyes opened wider than ever before at these words. They were the words and from the echoing voice of the man that had died without her. The man that she was going to start a family with have a wedding with. The man that she had seen the fireworks with on that special first day.

But anger rose up too because he had left her. Left her. Given her away. And just when they were about to make up she had been kidnapped. Molested. Assaulted. Left for the worse and then he left her for good. Died. She was not important any longer as he had gone on without her and left her here to fend for herself.

But suddenly..

There was dawn. A light came over the horizon in the darkened world. As if hope did indeed exist. The young Ziare turned to face the light. It was so .. pretty like a star falling from the sky and landing in her heart. Sterlizing the bad and blossoming the good that was left.

Ziare blinked.