Second meeting Second chance (Zaire/CLOSED)

[Ziare]

Ziare felt the arm around her but before she could move the wing wrapped around her and she closed her eyes breaking out in a cold sweat as she clenched her fists. He had been her boyfriend. She was supposed to be okay with this. They had done it so many times. She began to shake she was supposed to like this but she couldn't.. she just..

She moved with a squeak and left the bed going across the room her entire body trembling as tears ran down her cheeks. She closed her eyes as the memories came back. She cried harder as she collapsed on the floor and rocked back and forth as she knelt there. The memories coming back in flashes. Fiona her snow tiger summon came out and nuzzled up against Ziare who hugged her tightly.

.. being hugged tightly as he brought her..

.. being hugged while he fed her the drugs..

.. being hugged while. he.. while he..

She couldn't take it anymore she just couldn't. Everything had just gone wrong. Her life would never be the same. She couldn't stand the feelings. The dreams. The nightmares. She pointed to the door as she cried. She had to.. had to do something about all this. She had to.. there was.. no other choice.

[jyo]

Jyo let go and let her back away.
"I'm sorry." He said holding up his hands and backing away.
"I didn't mean to upset you." He said and sighed when she pointed to the door.
I don't want to go. Not with her like this. He thought as he looked at her deeply hurt by what happened to her. This was effecting him nearly as badly as her. All he wanted was to help and be there for her yet even now he was still screwing things up.
"Zaire. I don't want to but I'll leave. But please do not heasitate to ask fro my help. If you need me just think about that as hard as you can and I promise I'll be there quickly." He said as he reached the door.
"Ember please stay here. She seems to be more comfortable with you right now. Zaire don't forget. I'm different and so are you. But I still love you with all I am and I'm here for you. Don't give up. Not ever. You're better than that." He said with a small smile as he softly closed the door and then outside of it he collapsed to his knees. He didn't know what to do to help her. But she had responded to him. That was a sign. He knew it would take a long time for her to recover. But he had meant it when he told her he would be with her the whole time. he just wished things had never turned out this way.

[Ziare]

She didn't like to see him go but she couldn't let him see her like this. No one should have to see this. She shouldn't have to live this. There was no one in the world that should have to live like this ever. She slowly got up and Fiona screamed at her before she was unsummoned. She knew what was going through her master's mind.

She went to Ember and kissed his head before she grabbed some scissors and went into the bathroom. Closing the door the first thing she did was strip and break all the mirrors on the walls. She couldn't stand to look at her self anymore she was repulsive. Turning on the shower hot water only in a daze she stapped in and furiously began to scrub her scalding skin turning it red but she felt so so very dirty.

Crying and sobbing the shower did nothing to help. She knew that the taint was not just outside but inside alike. There was no way to purify the inside. Unless she bled. Perhaps to bleed such life energy would indeed purify her. If she survived perhaps it meant she needed to live. She got out of the shower. Placing a robe over her figure she took her hair in her hand and began visciously chopping away killing it easily. Taking two feet of hair off letting it fall down around her as she cried. Kaladara began screaming as she knelt amid all her hair and cut...

A razor so shiny and so sharp. It was the only thing that would enable her to become pure. Putting it to her wrist she began to cut. The blood .. it was so bright..