Time goes by... [Celeste]

[Angra Mainyu.]

A nagging feeling in his chest, he was slowly starting to think that his heart was trying to explode because of it's accelerated state. It had been almost 5½ long hours since he had left her broken and defeated. Now he were back again. This was something that happened much too often for his liking now. Though, he stilled liked the feeling it had given him, he had been consumed in a mixture of his and hers pain, something strange, it was as he could sense what part of the pain had been hers. Could identify it among the one that had been his own. It was odd and he had already pondered about that.

He was close to knocking on the door, but stopped himself. Was he ready? Would it be wise to knock on it? Without any thoughts he opened the door and walked in. Starting a line, but didn't see her anywhere. He sighed and walked out on the bathroom. She wasn't there either and turned back around again and saw her in the kitchen. He raced over to her and fell on his knees next to her.

"Celeste.... I love you... I am terrible sorry. It was like something, someone had possessed me and I couldn't control my actions..." Strangely enough then he put his arms down under her small and broken body and lifted her up with ease. Took her over to the bed and tried to ignore the feelings of thrill that followed with each movement of hers. He messed up their bed sheets. That they would have been making love in if it hadn't been for him and his rage, or her pulling the last trigger in having him roll over the edge. He turned his back to her and raced into the kitchen and found some icecubes, a bag, and mixed the two so he had an icebag. He walked in with it and placed it on her head.

"You must get better. I can't live without you. Forgive me! Please, dear Celeste... Please forgive me!"

[Celeste]

So long. So long she had lay there trying to mend herself. But she only let herself mend the broken bones. Screaming as she had her body reset them. She couldn't move yet. She had no energy and despite that it hurt just to open her eyes. It was five and a half hours before she heard a noise.

The door opened and shut. Tears leaked out of her eyes again as she knew who it was. She only hoped he hadn't come back for more. She lay in the pool of dinner and her own blood. She heard him searching the room for her. The bathroom, where she had been last time they fought, but no she couldn't move. He saw her in the kitchen her swollen eyes opened from her black face and she saw him race over to her.

He told her that he loved her and she began to cry harder. She didn't understand why she had set him off this badly by just burning dinner. He picked her up and she cried out her first sound as he held her close taking her limp body to the bed. Her skirt and shirt were stained with blood as he lay her down in the soft covers of the bed they had shared so many nights.

He covered her beaten body up as he raced into the kitchen again. She closed her eyes. He came back and placed ice on her forehead which hurt too. Just the added weight made her cringe. Her jaw wouldn't move so she couldn't talk much anyway it was still healing.

He told her that he couldn't survive without her and she turned her face away from him. How in the world could he say that he loved her and couldn't live without her when he had beaten her and left her for so long. She cried softly her shoulders shaking her pain hitting her in waves as her body trembled and her sobs made her shoulders shake.

[Angra Mainyu.]

He could feel every wave of pain she had, just as a wave of pure pleasure, a minor orgasme running all the time. Thinking of a way he could end her pain, barely had the thought risen before every particle in his body simoultanious felt lousy for even thinking of doing such a thing. He could only feel bad enough for himself to relieve himself of too unbearable pain, but not anyone else. Not even Celeste. He felt the pain coming from the improvised ice bag and removed it all together. She turned away from him and he knew why, still, it gave him a small growth in anger as he turned and threw the icebag at the door in sheer frustration, he turned back to her and touched her cheek softly, so softly that her barely even touched her at all.

"I know... I know. I am a bastard, a fucking idiot... I deserve nothing better than death for what I did to you..."

Getting up he chose the nearest wall and slammed his head into it a dozen of times until his blood trickled down the wall and once again their pain waves mixed in his head. He leaned back and saw a crimson colour on the wall. His blood. Turning back to Celeste he found her hand and brought his face down to it and gave each of her knuckles a kiss.

"I can't explain how awful I feel..."

[Celeste]

Celeste heard the ice hit the door and she cringed and yelped putting her hands up over her face instinctively. She felt his soft hand touching her cheek and she turned to face him. Making him look at what he had done to her. Her back was black and bruised badly it hurt to lay down. Her face was black and blue. Her jaw was blackened her stomach the same.

She looked at him through her half open eyes as he got up and beat himself up at the wall. She didn't smile. She didn't say a word she just watched. That made up for nothing. Nothing at all. He sat back down and took her hand. Lifting ti to his lips he kissed her knuckles one by one. Tears streamed from her blue eyes as she just looked at him.

"Annnnggggraa." she moaned out her jaw didn't open very far with the swelling. "sssooooorrrrrryyyyy aboout dinnnnner... neevverrrrr happppennn aggaiin..." she whispered out with her swollen mouth and lips.

Her hand closed over his gently. It was weak because she was weak. She closed her eyes for a moment before she opened them again and just looked right at him.

[Angra Mainyu.]

Could it be that her words struck a cord in him? That they did, he looked at her face as she spoke. She said she were sorry for burning the dinner. He stared at her, and felt quite sad for how attached she were to him. Another thing came to his apparent mind, that he might even share something for her. A subtle feeling that she deserved better, but she should feel the same pleasure as him when she were in pain. Right? He had no answer, he had never thought of that, always been selfish in his beliefs.

"Don't talk... I know it harms you to do that..."

His subconcious in uproar at what he did, the pain loving part of his mind cried out in terror as he moved his right hand and touched the side of her neck.

"Don't worry... You will be alright. I know some magic that can help you..."

Placing his palm on her neck he muttered some words, he still hadn't learned to use the spell well enough to simply just fire it away. A solemn tear rolled down his cheek at what atrocity he was to do. She would feel nerves stop sending signals up her neck, it would stun her nerves for some time. He could hammer her in the chest with a sledgehammer at she would feel nothing at all. She would only feel the pain in her head, as he had only stunned impulses from passing her neck to reach her brain.

He waited some moments, waiting to see if it was working using his natural ability to track pain down. He closed his eyes and kissed the backside of her hand again. He would never be able to bring himself to do such a deed for her again, no matter how serious the pain were, he wouldn't be able to control his need for pain.

"I love you, I love you my sweetest girl..."

[Celeste]

Celeste's body hurt so very badly. Her eyes closed when he moved in to touch her and told her not to speak. She lay there with her eyes closed yearning for sleep and wanting to stay awake all at the same time. Wanting to feel his arms around her but knowing she was much to hurt to do that. She felt him do something and her entire body went numb except her head.

Her eyes shot open as she looked at him. He kissed her hand and she didn't feel it. Had she broken something? No he had told her he had magic that would help her. But he was supposed to be an enchanter an illusionist how had he done this. Her mind raced in confusion. She opened her mouth again despite the pain.

"How?" she asked in her soft and hurting voice.

She looked at him when he told her he loved her.. twice. He rarely said those three words to her and she let the tears fall as she looked at him. He did still love her? Because she hurt so terribly bad and right now she was just shocked he had come back at all.

"I ... looooooooooove yooooouuuuuu." she whispered as she closed her eyes.

[Angra Mainyu.]

Her voice dragged out like a broken machine, and he could feel her pain drag through him each time she opened her mouth to speak. He could feel it as a pleasing shiver and he immediately had regrets about numbing her body. Just imagine how much pain she would have been in if he hadn't. He nearly drooled at the thought. He had already replenished the mana usage from her pain, it was extreme how fast it went at times.

"It's better if you don't know how I did it..."

He closed his eyes and kissed her hand once again, she might not feel it, but he could and it comforted him some.

"I love you too my angel and you should rest now... You need to... " he gulped "... regain your strenght again... and unless you won't like it, then I will be here when you wake up..."

[Celeste]

Better if she didn't know. Her eyes welled with tears that fell because she hadn't the strength to hold them back. He wouldn't tell her. That meant he was keeping secrets. They were supposed to love each other but secrets didn't mean love it meant something else and that wasn't what she wanted. She watched as her had was kissed again and wished in a way she could feel those lips but she was better without the pain.

She swallowed and let the tears be soaked up by the pillow as her blue eyes finally closed. She relaxed her body as the tears continued to flow. She was crying for a lot of reasons right not but she couldn't tell him. She wasn't good enough for anyone not anymore. She couldn't even cook dinner right. How was she supposed to keep a boyfriend like Angra happy.

"Doooon't leaave... hoooolllld mmeeee..." she whispered as she finally fell into a deep sleep. She didn't hurt as much as before thansk to angra's secret. But she did indeed still hurt from the neck up. She was thankful for the pain release but it would be back she knew it. So for now in the brief moment of peace she slept.

[Angra Mainyu.]

Her eyes were closed, and Angra looked at her. The only thing telling him that she were still alive where the small everlasting feeling of pleasure in his mind. He made sure she lay in a comfortable way and pulled the blanket over her. He had a kitchen to clean up, he needed to make it all seem normal. He first cleaned away the blood she had splattered over places. Then he removed all traces of her dinner. Then he opened the fridge and took a cold beer, removed the lid and poured down some of the cold beer. He stood for some seconds and wondered what to do. He could either stand here and drink beer and feel sorry for himself. Two, go outside and have someone feel his hatred and pain. Three, go over to her and lie next to her to show her some support.

Some beers later he decided for number three. The table would be seen with some 6 empty beers on it, Angra was the man behind this. He lay down next to her, pulled the blanket over himself, and placed a hand on her stomach and then laid there, half asleep. Waiting for something he did not know what was.

[Celeste]

It was the next morning when she finally woke. Her dreams had not been good and she felt like she needed a lot more sleep but her pain had returned and it was what had finally woken her up. Her entire body pounded her pulse beat in her head as she began to cry and groan underneath the pain. She writhed in the bed and felt Angra beside her.

She wrapped a blanket around her bruised body. She was all swollen now and hideous he would never love her now. She curled up in a little ball as she tried to forget the pain and block it from Hadrian all the same. They had a connection where he could feel when she was in great need and it was taking much of her strength and mana to not let him know. She writhed again as she cried silently through the pain making no noise only moving on the bed.

She had been in pain before but this wasn't just physical. Pain was both mental and emotional. She bit her lower lip and tried to hide how much pain she was in from everyone. She tried to breath in and out just concentrating on that alone hoping that if she concentrated on something else her brain would forget the pain but there in lay the problem. She couldn't think about anything for long as jolts of pain seemed make sure of that.

[Angra Mainyu.]

There are those who dream pleasant dreams and smile and feel sad for waking up. There are those who wake up with a shriek because they had the most terrifying nightmare. Angra had a split of these, it was his most pleasant dreams, and someone's elses nightmare. Celeste's. She woke up at some point and that could Angra feel in his sleep. He lay there and smiled up into the air. Waking up some 10 minutes after Celeste. He had an head ache. His eyelids parting and he was finally awake after a long night where pleasure had arrived in the middle of it. His green eyes looking around, from the table with beers and down on the angel that was next to him. Like a ghost her pain was a part of him, and he trully enjoyed that. It felt that she was a part of him.

"Illusions..."

He said this as he looked up into the ceilling again. He snapped a finger loudly and the room seemed filled with roses and other colourful flowers. She was fuelling this magic.

"I can do many things with it. But when I really need something. then it avoids my grasp. If it was in my grasp to somehow help you. Then I would, but last night... I can't do that again. My body won't allow me to ease the pain on you... I feel trully powerless at times like this..."

He sighed and looked over to her curled up as a small ball, like a small pathetic cat trying to protect it self from pain. He could feel every single bit of it, and he loved it to the core of his beating heart. He touched the side of her face.

"Do you still love me? Even after... ?"