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Post by jyo on Oct 15, 2006 1:04:25 GMT -5
Jyo stood on the top of a moutain deep in the wood in an area of land not far from the Academy. It had been several days since his talk with Zaire and he was still furious with himself. He had never acted like that before. Not ever. he had brokn down when she needed the help he had wanted to give her. he was amazed she could stand the sight of him. But still things didn't seem as bad as they once did.
Nothing that couldnt have been done without me. I'm not sure I should even stay with her. After all I seem to have only brought her misery since waking up form the coma. Perhapes it would have been better for me to have stayed in it. He thought as the wind rustled his coat and wings. Jyo turned his white yees to the sky. Still I owe it to Zaire to do what I have done. I love her too much and have let her down too many times. Something I'll never do again. I'll never fail her again. Not ever. He thought and shook his head. He wished he could have turned back time. He would have never left her to go to Japan. That trip to settel family matters had led to this trouble. And the fact he couldn't have told Zaire until he came back on that dreadful night. That tore him apart.
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Post by Ziare on Oct 15, 2006 3:30:00 GMT -5
She had gotten a message. Needing to meet Jyo here. She didn't know what he would think of her new look. She had bandanges around her wrists and her hair was now cut shorter so that it only fell to her hips now. She had put on jeans and a soft pink sweater the very one from the first day they had met so long ago.
Hiking through the woods had indeed been rather relaxing. Nature seemed to have that effect on her and she smiled softly as she walked out onto the mountain clearing Jyo was in. She saw him there by the edge thinking it seemed. She wondered why he had wanted to meet all the way out here but she assumed he would let her know.
"..Jyo.." she said softly her first word to him since she had woken in the hospital. She still didn't speak much but she did at least speak now where as before there was nothing.
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Post by jyo on Oct 15, 2006 3:40:16 GMT -5
Jyo nearly jumped. Zaire had spoken. Actually spoken to him. he smiled as he turned around. "Zaire it's good to..." He stopped in mid sentance seeing Zaire. He noticed her hair was cut shorter. Not that it looked bad but it was surprising and his eyes showed the surprise. But the thing he notcied next was much more interesting. She was wearing the same clothing she did when they had met. he remembered the day like no other. And wouldn't mistake how she looked. "You look very nice. Different but still very nice.' he said with a small smile and then looked back into her eyes letting the white of his own fade away. it took effort and gave him a slight headace. And as his white eyes seemed to have bothered her he would stand the slight pain for her. "Well I just wanted to check up on you really. It's looks like you are doing better. And I also figured some time out here would be nice to spend some time with each other. you semmed rather happy in the outdoors." he said walking up to her wanting to embrace her. It showed in his eyes very clearly. But he also remembered how she reacted from a simple arm around her and didn't want to scare her off. Particularly as she could talk now.
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Post by Ziare on Oct 15, 2006 3:49:01 GMT -5
Ziare blushed deeply when he stopped in mid sentence taking in her appearance. He knew that her hair had been important to her. It was important to her family it was what the women in her family did but she had taken a lot of it off. She saw the need in his eyes and she took a deep breath. She knew she could trust Jyo.
Slowly she made her way over to him and put her arms around his waist. Her eyes closed and she relaxed in the familiar arms of Jyo. Hugging him very gently.
"I'm here now. We can spend time if you like." she whispered softly.
She stayed here though. Not moving from his arms. She wasn't ready to leave just yet. She wanted Jyo to know that though she wasn't ready for a lot of things she still considered him a very important person in her life. This was proof.
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Post by jyo on Oct 15, 2006 3:55:40 GMT -5
Jyo smiled as Zaire put her arms around him. e did the same and his wings folding slightly around her but not by much. It was more of a reflex than a determined action. "You look much better. I'm sorry I wasn't much help. I wasn't being myself for a while. That couldn't have done you any good." he said keping her there. Having her in his arms again was wonderful. Zaire always felt as if she fit there perfectly. Though he noticed something seemed missing. He wasn't sure what but it seemed to be the lack of what used to be there. But that wasn't going to bother him right this moment. Zaire was not only speaking but could stand being in his arms again. He wasn't going to complain. "God. I know I haven't been around. I also thought that you deserved the full story of when I left beforehand and why I am the way I am now." he said softly. "That is if you want to still know. I shouldn't have ever kept it from you. You were right. I wanted you as my family and I didn't even tell you the truth." he said.
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Post by Ziare on Oct 15, 2006 4:08:20 GMT -5
Ziare stayed in his arms and wings for a few more minutes while he spoke. She seemed to be okay for now. She was calm and she knew that Jyo wouldn't hurt her. She breathed in his scent but it felt weird that he was cold and not warm anymore. When he began to speak of the time he had left she moved back gently.
Removing herself from his arms she sat down on the small area they were in and thought about it. She had been very upset about why he wouldn't tell her why he left. She didn't like the fact that he hid things from her.
"I didn't like the fact that you hid things from me. It wasn't right. I never hid things from you and you refused to tell me. If I was important at all, if you really wanted me there in your life you should have told me. Because if I couldn't have helped I definatly could have been supportive." she told him her tone was rather harsh. That fight had never really been ended because of her kidnapping but she was trying not to think about that part.
"However, if you wish to tell me what happened I am listening."
She looked up at the sky for a moment before she just looked out at the scenery below them. It was beautiful up here and she was somewhat glad she had decided to join him.
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Post by jyo on Oct 15, 2006 4:17:20 GMT -5
"And as I said. I am sorry. truly. it is the only thing I hid from you. But even though it was the wrong thing to do I think you'll understand my reasons." he said and walked to the egde of the cliffside again staring out over the land. "My family is cursed. Well more in debt than cursed on my mother's side. Apparently a rift had opened on my grandfather's property. Oddly enough the creatures that poured out didn't want to start destroying things left and right. They were apparently rather smart. What they wanted was a foothold of our dimension. My grandfather who apparently was not as honorable as my parents were and brought me up to be. Had traded the bit of land for some of the power they held. It was to be transffered to all those in his family. Including my mother and then myself." he said then sighed and shook his head. "Then the old man made a mistake. He decided to use this new power to wipe out the scouting group into our world before they corrupted the land they were given. And from then on cursed us as the demons now hunt those related to my family by blood or otherwise down and will destroy them for that is the only way to regain the power they had given. And the would kil anyone with such knowladge" he said sighing.
"Do you know understand why I hid it. Why I postponed our wedding we planned to have. I was going to have to take care of them beforehand. And I thought i did when I left. But when I tried to go after you I found out I was wrong. That is why I am as you seem me now." he said.
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Post by Ziare on Oct 15, 2006 4:30:14 GMT -5
Ziare listened carefully to the rather condensed version of a long story and scratched at the scars on her wrists that were covered by bandages fresh this morning. They drove her nuts but were healing and she would always have the scars but that wasn't important she was still alive and that was.
"You still should have told me. I mean seriously Jyo I'm a High Summoner. I'm not some small weak girl you met on the street despite what I might look like. I could have helped together we are much stronger than apart."
But what stopped her rant was when he said he had come after her. She looked up suddenly.
"..you...you came after me?" she whispered as her eyes welled with tears. "I.. hadn't known."
She wiped the tears off her cheeks with the back of her hands and took a deep breath. She really wanted this meeting to go well. They may not be dating anymore but she didn't want anything to go wrong. She didn't want to lose Jyo.
"And how is the curse now?" she asked softly.
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Post by jyo on Oct 15, 2006 4:35:37 GMT -5
"It's not that I thought or think you weak. It's the fact I didn't have the right to drag you into such a position. And as for now. They have killed me. I found out they fell they've he their revenge as I have been stripped of my old powers. I talked with my parents. After a long time of akward moments I found My mother has been stripped of them somehow. The demons are gone." he said softly almost as if it was a dream. He looked surprised that Zaire tok his new of coming after her in such a manner. "You didn't think I would with the way you were taken from me? How many times am I going to have to say I love you for you to realize that I would have never let you be taken like that if I could help it. As I said. I died for you and came back. In a literal sense. Zaire no matter what happens I'm going to be around to help you." he said.
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Post by Ziare on Oct 15, 2006 4:42:50 GMT -5
Ziare stood up as tears ran down her face. She had issues. A lot of them and as she chewed on her thumb nail she looked out over the edge of the cliff. A week ago she would have gladly jumped but right now it felt a bit scary and so she backed off a foot or two.
"You love the old me." she whispered and wiped her tears away. "I'm different. You're different. YOU'RE DEAD FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!" she said as she closed her eyes collecting herself.
"I mean how do you marry a dead person. How do you have a family with a person that is no longer alive? You can't can you? Have a family? Don't lie to me Jyo Mashima you know that that won't fly. I don't know what to do. I can't imagine myself being touched in that way again but I want a family so bad I can taste it. I miss us. I really do but we've both changed so much and damnit I'm damaged now. I have scars both internal and external. I am not the same Ziare Langely you knew that night under the fireworks. I wish to God I was. I wish I could just pick us right back up and continue."
"But if you think about it you said you would marry me one day and you asked me and I said yes. But it wasn't the real proposal you said so yourself. I have no ring. I have nothing of the sort. And where is your ring Jyo? The one I gave to you?" she asked looking over at him. "We are strangers right now. Friends at best because I cannot look at you and say that I know you as deeply as I did before. Must we start over? Must we try again? Tell me Jyo." she said.
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Post by jyo on Oct 15, 2006 4:54:31 GMT -5
Unlike many peope Jyo did not look away as Zaire shout at him. He looked strait into her eyes. e was slightly annoyed. Her words had truth to them but other parts were not correct. "I know you're different as am I. But at some level I am still Jyo and you are still Zaire. Changes happen and not always for the better. This is a perfect example." He said keeping his calm. She hadn't run away ich was good. That ment this argument was a good thing. They had to get it out of the way for things to get better.
He walked to Zaire slowly and reached into his coat pocket. "And Zaire though I've died I'm still here. Death wasn't my ending. I can still be with a living person. The only way we can't be together is if you don't want us to. I've known since coming back we couldn't pick things up right off. And I've accepted that. Mabye not happily but I did accept it.." he said stopping less then a foot away but he had folded his wings back to seem less intimidating. He just wanted to be near her. "And you speak of a ring. Do you have any idea what I did on my way back. What I planned to do on that night." he said pulling out first a small black box. "I had bought this after I belived the troules to be over. I was going to tel you everything. All of it. And this..." He said pulling out the ring she had given him. "I had been wearing since you gave it to me. Please do not ask how painful it was to go back for the gift you gave me." he said softly as he handed her the box. "Zaire I don't want us to start over. I also know we can't go back to how things were. "But no matter what the love I feel for you is the same. I want to go on with our plans. I know it's not going to be this instant. But I still want it." he said.
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Post by Ziare on Oct 15, 2006 5:04:45 GMT -5
Ziare watched in utter shock as he pulled out a small box that she already knew what it held. Tears welled up in her eyes as she looked at him and heard him speak. Pulling out his own ring which.. why the hell was it in his pocket?.. and showing it to her too. She silently wondered if he had gotten the amulet she had given him too. She still wore the bracelet he had given her daily the one with the blue saphire heart and his engraving on it.
When he was done and the box was set in her hand she didn't open it but she looked up at him with tears streaming down her face as she cried softly.
"Damnit Jyo Mashima why in God's name do you keep dodging my questions? What does THIS MEAN!?" she asked motioning towards his body.
"You're dead. Spill it out for me. What does it mean? Do you grow old? Do you have children? Can you marry? What happens if I can't be with you? What happens to us? What has changed? Why did you come back? I need to know so much and you keep dodging. I need to know." she said urgently as she placed the box back in his hand and closed in hand around it.
Crying she moved and hugged him tightly crying on his shoulder. She was so lost and confused. She was not used to this. She hated feeling like this and she hated fighting with Jyo. They had never fought before and now it seemed like that was all she did.
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Post by jyo on Oct 15, 2006 5:12:04 GMT -5
Jyo put his arms around Zaire and stroked her hair sotly like he used to. "Very well. I can gow old. Have a family. In many terms I'm still human in amny ways. The changs you see are physical and with my powers. Otherwise there is no true differnce. I have come back to you. I payed a price to do so. After I die my second time I don't et an afterlife. There is nothing for me after this. Thats why I want evey moment to count." He said then pulled away only slightly to look down into her eyes. "What it means Zaire. Is I came back for you. I still love you even though you changed. I still want to mary you, A family. I want all that too." He said and gently took the box from her hand. He knelt in front of her. "Zaire. I know it's not going to be right now. There is still so much left to recover from. But I still want to be with you. Would you marry me when this all is setteled. I know there are some things that won't heal completely. But I did mean it when I said I'm ready to help you when you need it." he said.
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Post by Ziare on Oct 15, 2006 5:27:51 GMT -5
Ziare just stood there in his arms for a few moments as he stroked her hair she smiled softly. It was so perfect right now. Just them together for the moment no pressure. Not too much pushing. She was finally okay with touching him and he seemed to be enjoying it.
But when he stepped away and got down on one knee her eyes went wide and tears ran down her cheeks. The moment she had always wanted was indeed coming but it wasn't coming at the right moment at all. She cried softly and as he asked her to marry him when everything was over with she just shook for a moment.
Damnit!
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Zi?
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Breathe girl!
Ziare blinked and she leaned down gently and touched Jyo's face gently cupping his cheek softly. Her hand was trembling. She leaned in and kissed his cheek very softly.
"I can't commit to that right now and you know it. Jyo.. I need time to heal. I need time.. time." she said and turned. Crying harder she ran. Ran into the forest. Heading back to the academy. Why had he asked now? Yes she willing to try but a commitment that strong..
She was sobbing by the time she broke through the first trees. Sobbing so hard she summoned Armenius and climbed up on his back so that he could take her to the academy.
I need time..
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Post by jyo on Oct 15, 2006 5:33:14 GMT -5
Jyo sighed. Not the reaction he was looking for. he didn't expect a yes. But he ad to clear things with her. Too important not to do this. He thought and locked onto Zaire and transported in front of her. "Zaire just a moment." he said and took a deep breath. "I of course didn't mean for you to answer now. All I ask is you please consider it. I wasn't just saying random words when I said it would take time. I know it's going to take a long time for you to heal. It's going to take a long time for me as well. Niether of us can commite right now. But I still want things to work out for us." he said walking to her. he opend the boc taking out a ring that matched the one she gave him and gently took her hand and placed it in hers. "The ring is for you either way. If not a band for marrige in the future. Then it is at the very least a gift showing how I feel. Please take it." He said softly.
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