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Post by Ziare on May 31, 2006 17:26:37 GMT -5
Ziare was tired more like exhausted as she walked dirty and tired through the halls of school. She was shaking. Not only from exhaustion but from holding in so many emotions. She was on her way to getting comfort and solace but she still have five more feet to go. And in this state five feet was a lot.
She made it leaning against the door frame she knocked weakly her eyes closed her body weak. She only hoped against all hope that Jyo was not only home but would have heard her feeble knock. Her lower lip trembled she needed to get it out. That mission had taken more out of her than she had thought it would.
She leaned there and waited.
Please be home please home. she thought.
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Post by jyo on May 31, 2006 20:18:10 GMT -5
Jyo walked through the halls He checked his watch. Ziare should be back from her mission. he was eagerly waiting to see her again. He turned the corner to the hall where his room was when he saw Ziare at his door. he could instantly tell something was wrong.
"Ziare." He said and ran to her. He gently put his hands on her shoulders haveing her face him.
"Whats wrong?" He asked.
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Post by Ziare on May 31, 2006 20:25:59 GMT -5
Ziare practically fell into his arms sobbing. She could not stand well and was falling slowly as the last of her strenght ebbed. Her tears were coming fast and Jyo's face his worrying had sent her into sobs. She held onto him crying hard. She couldn't stop she kept seeing them all of them. She knew she had done what she had to but it didn't make it any easier.
"J--yo." she cried and clung to him as a life line.
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Post by jyo on May 31, 2006 20:32:54 GMT -5
Jyo held her close to him and stroked her hair gently.
"Ziare cal down. Let's talk." he said and then opened his door and led her inside. He set her down on the bed and then went to get some tea for them. He didn't think he should wait for the water to boild so using his firestream spell he heated up the water instantly and then poured it and let the tea soak.
He brought the cups back and handed one to Ziare. He sat next to her and put an arm around her.
"This is about the mission. I can tell. What happend?" he asked.
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Post by Ziare on May 31, 2006 20:49:49 GMT -5
She held her tea her cup shaking in her hand. The tea inside shaking and sloshing down onto her robes but she didn't care she didn't even feel the liquid burn her.
Her body still shook with her sobs though she had long since run out of tears. But she could barely get a breath in and wasn't yet ready to talk.
"It...was horrible." she got out before breaking down into more tears.
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Post by jyo on May 31, 2006 20:55:32 GMT -5
Jyo took her tea and set it aside mopping her up a bit. He held her again this time very close.
"Ziare I know these missions can be terrible. Thats why they ask for volenteers and don't order us to go. Please tell me what happened." He said in a concerned voice. He already had a good idea what happend though. Lives had been taken. And even in the battle where the Jackle creature led a force to attack. He didn't think Ziare killed anyone and had been acting as support.
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Post by Ziare on May 31, 2006 21:10:39 GMT -5
Ziare nodded at his statements. He was right they weren't madatory but she wanted to do her part for the school.
"Oh Jyo it was terrible. I didn't know..." she broke off trying to calm herself again before continuing.
"I used Noxanna to paralyze and then.." she broke down again at the horrible image.
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Post by jyo on May 31, 2006 21:18:27 GMT -5
Jyo kept holding her and running his fingers through her hair slowly and gently while he rubbed her back trying to comfort her.
"Don't rush yourself Let it come out as it goes. We have a while together without intteruptions. Just take your time." he said. Jyo had claimed lives. But never a human life. and he belived he heard actual humans were on the other side of the mission she went on.
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Post by Ziare on May 31, 2006 21:27:46 GMT -5
Ziare cried for a while longer her body so exhausted. She hadn't slept and all the mana she had used during battle had worn her out. If it hadn't been for Talbot she'd probably be unconscious.
"and then...I thought we could question him or let him go or something but ..."
she broke of grabbing Jyo's hand...
"he stabbed him Jyo...Tenshu he stabbed him."
she cried harder lost in sobs glad for the comfort Jyo was offering.
"My spell..he couldn't defend himself...it's all my fault....he..."
"died" she whispered the last word.
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Post by jyo on May 31, 2006 21:36:00 GMT -5
"No it isn't. It's not your fault at all. Tenshu stabbed him not you. You didn't kill that man. It isn't your fault." he said softly squeezing her hand gently.
"I'm sorry you had to go through that Ziare. I don't like to sound cold but you did see a bit of how this world is. It has good things init. but the ugly side is very bad indeed." he said
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Post by Ziare on May 31, 2006 21:43:49 GMT -5
Ziare looked up at Jyo her eyes wide and red. The skin normally so pale and smooth now red and blotchy.
"But it was my fault Jyo. I paralyzed him and then he couldn't move or protect himself. I made him die because I used my spell." Her eyes sought comfort in his own.
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Post by jyo on May 31, 2006 21:49:59 GMT -5
Jyo cupped her cheek in his hand and stared her in the eys.
"No Ziare. mabey your actions did help lead to it. But as you said. You wanted to question the man. It sounds like his killer didn't wait." he said then gave a very soft comforting smile.
"To clear it up let me ask you this. Did you asked for Tenshu to do that. Did Tenshu ask you if that was the plan. Did you stab him?" He said trying to put things in a more proper setting. Ziare was not at fault. It sounded like her teamate had been hasty and rushed in to kill the man.
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Post by Ziare on May 31, 2006 21:58:15 GMT -5
Ziare looked into Jyo's eyes running her hands over her face. She was so tired.
"No, I didn't ask him and he didn't ask me." she told him. "They said we could kill them or bring them back."
She rubbed her eyes and tried to focus on Jyo's face.
"You know me Jyo, I wanted to bring them back."
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Post by jyo on May 31, 2006 22:01:36 GMT -5
"Then it wasn't your fault Ziare. You and your teamate did not communicate. And the man died. The blame does not rest on you. I know you wouldn't have had the man killed if you had the option not to." he said gently going back to holding her next to him and rubbing her back.
"These things happen love. We can't always control them. but there is something you can control Which is to not forget the mistake and continue with life. or to dwell on it and blame yourself. I hope you choose the former of the two." he said.
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Post by Ziare on May 31, 2006 22:08:25 GMT -5
Ziare nodded. She was almost too tired to answer. She lifted a visibly shaking hand to her face and rested her head in it. But soon she let her hand rest against Jyo's chest and lowered her hand leaving it shaking on her lap. She closed her eyes.
"Jyo...can I stay with you tonight?" she whispered almost already half asleep.
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